It was at around 3.45am this morning when I woke and realised that the thing I have strived for so long I don’t actually need.
I don’t need to be accepted as part of a group. Not really. I have individuals in my life who accept me as I am. They care so much for me. They are what is important. The notion that I need any more than that from a group collective is, on reflection, quite ridiculous. Why should I keep on dwelling on being something I can’t be?
It’s time to just do what I can do. I need to keep on telling myself this.
I find it remarkable that it’s taken so long to realise this.